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So my mom said she made me a pumpkin pie when I was at work today, I get home and sure enough the pie is gone. I feel like my life is one big tease. So I did what any senseable guy would doi walked to the store and bought myself a pie just for me. Fuck you pumpkin you ain't got nothin on my cherrypie

Just got to laugh. Roll with the punches take the hits square on the jaw with a grin on your face. Time to stop getting mad at yourself that's out if your control. Can't blame the sky for being blue. The one constant in my life is that everything changes. This time next month ill be somewhere else a few months after that again and again a few months after that. I'm almost glad to be leavin. Give me an opportunity to weed out my real friends and then those that say they are. And lastly its me that's going to change hopefully all for the better. Here's goodluck to every who is honest and a true friend and to the rest fucjmk you

Its a life with a nickleback/red hott chilli peppers mix tape in the background. Not living the same as the lyrics but simply enjoying the beat. Always wanting more from life always Wanting to settle down. Thinking that blue jeans and a white tshirt would make a great uniform but not afraid to answer the call of Uncle Sam. Always willing to get my hands dirty and dirt under my nails. Frequently catches himself stairing at the stars wishing to be taken away. its me.

I haven't been home in years. I live in a house with my family, I see my friends and neighbors but this place will never be my home. My home is where I learned about life, where I felt at ease with myself and the world, it was where I learned to breath.

Staten island has some pretty cool people in it, but these people don't understand where I'm coming from. When it comes to things I always think ahead and try to make sure there are no repercussion, I'm not some prick out there only rooting for myself. I've met a few people who I know are going places and good for them. This whole paragraph was just a jumble of sentence string together with no relation to one another but its okay, why because if I'm not caring about it you shouldn't.

I've fallen into a bit of a slump lately. Things got to me that really shouldn't have. I know what happened I can't change what happened things fell apart and not that I have the best track record to say this but I'm not gunna drag it out. Shit happens whether good bad or in the middle and I can't do or say anything about it. I felt like I connected for the first time in years that there was someone I could actually talk to about damn near everything and she was cute to. Not to mention an overall awesome person all wrapped into one. But like I said things change people change time moves on, so here's to you and here's goodbye

There are things that I will never forget, things I've said, I've done, I didn't do, and things that did or didn't happen to me. All these things builds character. I am starting to feel content with the the things in my life. I want to be a marine, I want to be a teacher, I want work everyday till they put me in my grave. I love working my ass off it makes me feel good at the end of the day. As for other things, I want to forget the bad right now, embrace the good, and dream for the future. When I'm gone I hope things turn out well for my friends. I have high hopes for them and my family.

Its funny because I know that no body reads this but it feels good to be able to get it out

I have to give a thanks to my mother, the strongest women in the world who has been through more then I could ever imagine. And she still finds the time to laugh, smile and crack jokes. She taught me to never give up, always forgive, be heard, and most importantly of all to dedicate yourself to everything you do. Nothing is worth doing if you only do it half assed. She the reason for my good work habits.

I'm trying my best to understand what's going on right now, I really am. Its time to stop making the same old mistakes and start over. Maybe a re-introduction is in order.

Understand me don't just put up with me. Care about me don't pity me. I ask simply that I'm not treat without regard for my feelings. I'm human just like everyone else and have a breaking point don't just assume that ill be okay with it. Done

Never hold back because you one day you may regret it. Don't hold grudges when you would do the same as them. How can anyone hope to live life to the fullest without getting hurt. Your not gunna die from a bad friendship, brokenheart or bruised ego. Just like peppers they put hair on your chest.

I've set my life on the back burner waiting for people to get there act together for awhile now. I'm extremely dedicated to everyone in my life, family, friends, co-workers, but its time to get what I want out of life and maybe hurt some people if they care as much as they should then maybe they will realize that I'm human and have needs.

My song of life right now "flat on the floor" it came on lastnight when I was running on the boardwalk and I was maxing it out the whole time. I blew my chops but it felt good. There really is nothing like being in pain but knowing that you accomplished something.

The countdown begins, I leave soon. I want to hang out and see everyone befor I go but I doubt it will happen. But when I'm in cali I already have plans for a big reunion with my old group of friends its been atleast 5 years. When I went back over the summer I didn't get any time to see anyone. I might just buy a car and then drive back when my training is over. It will be trip number 6 I think but I love it you see new things meet new people each and every time.

I got reunited with a friend from high school. We just started talkin out of the blue and she reminded me of why I hate people from new york. Correction 99% of people in my age group. Lack of anything remotely considered morales or inabitions.

A few things in my personal life I'm not sure how to handle. I would the full story from a few people regarding a few things. if there's one thing I can't stand its the run around. I need full discolsure only then could I make a well informed decision. It sounds like a medical diagnoses and that's how I approch my life with certain care so as to not set something up that may come around again. I despise karma

I have a choice to make in the next few days. This could effect everything or maybe just set it in motion. Leave in 2 weeks or a month and 2 weeks? Let me sleep on it.

Apologizes go out to her. I should be more accepting and understand after all it is her choice not mine. Just give me a heads up because I can't help but feel there's more then your letting on.

Just cant, i really just cant